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I promised myself I wouldn't write another journal like this, but I don't care anymore. Some of you may be familiar with , my boyfriend, make that my ex-fiance. Well, this time he means it when he says that he doesn't want to do this anymore, even though this is only the second time. He doesn't want me anymore and I don't blame him. We have to keep our relationship a secret and we can only see each other for an hour once a week. I love him so dearly that I can't stop crying, my hands are trembling and my heart is beating so fast I feel like I may have a heart attack and die. I love him so much, and I promised to myself and God that if I ever lost him, I would never love another man... I've been hurt too many times. Now I'm going to keep my promise, and I will never be fully happy again. He made me feel complete and happy, and I've opened up so much to him because I trust him with my life. I have no reason for living and I don't care what happens to me. Nobody say anything about him, he has the right to leave me and move on. I just never will move on, I love him that much. We were going to get married, have a family and be happy forever. Obviously that will never happen now. It's my fault he feels like I don't love him, and now he's gone! If you ever read this mi amor, I love you so much and I will always love you ... even if you don't love me anymore. I will just read our old messages and imagine what could have been. Just talking to you was the highlight of my day even if I didn't see you or hear your wonderful voice, no matter how long I waited. I hope you find someone that will treat you better than I have, and that she never leaves you. I hope you're happy with her and that she's your true love. I just want to see you one more time. Te voy a amar por toda la eternidad, mi amor.
Quite a Surprise
So, last Saturday I kinda made an impulse buy. After going out to eat, my mom and I stopped at a fabric store. I, well, I bought a cosplay pattern for certain capes. It had one like the Assassin's Creed cape, a Vincent Valentine one, and a steampunk one. Guess why I bought it. ^^;
Anyway, the surprise part is that my mom was pretty ok with it. Even when we went to another store yesterday, she was asking which brand the patterns were and noticed that it was on sale. I'm surprised since not a lot of other people understand this. Then again... I'm sure that she thinks that it'll be the motivation I need to learn how to sew. ^^; Oh well. Still c
About This Summer
Ok, so since I just finished classes officially, and hoping I get a C in one of them, ^^; I think I won't be able to get on as often as I normally do during the summer. I may only be able to get on once a week at best since this summer will be busy, so if I don't answer in a timely fashion, that's why. ^^;
YES!
I just did my first interview, and I pretty much got the job! :D YAY! :dance: Sure I have to wait for all the paperwork and stuff, but whatever! I was surprised to even get an interview and then a job!
Double Tag!
I've been tagged by ~Aviana-Designs (https://www.deviantart.com/aviana-designs) and :iconLadyAilana115:, it's been a while since I did one of these.
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person has to share 10 facts about themselves.
3. Answer the 10 questions asked by the person who tagged you and make up 10 questions for the 10 you tag.
4. Choose 10 people and put their icons in your journal.
5. Not something like "You are tagged if you read that".
6. You have to legitimately tag 10 people.
7. No tag-backs.
8. You can't say that you don't do tags.
9. You MUST make a journal entry!
10 facts about me:
1. I have a younger brother.
2. People say that I look younger than my actual age.
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